I've been free for in essence two days now. Or is it three? My last day as a secretary was...the 29th. It's almost surreal. I feel free. For the last almost 40 years, I've had a full-time job, and no real freedom in between. I guess selling real estate wasn't exactly full time, but it was consuming. And at that time, so was my relationship.
Why do we put all we have into a relationship that is doomed from the start? And why do we try so hard, and hope to force things that aren't meant to be? Well, some of us do that, and I have no idea why.
Getting back to my new adventure - 2018's word is REINVENT.
I like the way that sounds. Reinvent. So many grand ideas come to mind. Practicing more yoga and meditation are just a few. Maybe spend more time at Song of the Morning Ranch? Taking the Color Theory class is perfect too. And Tuesday I get to pick up a refurbished laptop, that can support Microsoft 7, instead of Vista like this one. Which means....I can spend time hopefully every day with Rosetta Stone German. I have so many plans it's actually quite exciting!
I'm sitting here thinking of all the years I've been under someone else's rule. And lived the life someone else wanted me to live. Years ago, a therapist told me I was an enabler, and I can admit I have been, and at times probably still am.
My time is now. I feel it like never before. I am free of my daily job, I'm free of two females who affected me negatively almost every day for the last 15 years. And in a way, I'm free of the rule of anyone in my world. At least for now- in essence leaving me with 9 hours a day during a work week to discover and create the True person I am, and was meant to be.
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